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Jan 24, 2012 Personal Life
On May 26, I’ll be marrying the woman of my dreams. In 34 years I’ve seen the worst of the worst in women which has left some scars that I thought would last my lifetime. In over a year and a half with Cristen I’ve learned what it means to actually be loved by a loving woman. I’ve learned what it feels like to not have to worry about being lied to, cheated on, to not have someone solely with you because of what you can do for them or what they can get out of you. I’ve learned what a loving heart means in times of crisis or concern and how comforting it is to feel the touch of someone that adores you and only wants you to be happy.
I’ve never before felt like I had a better half, as the joke says, but I understand now what that means. Both of us, our entire lives felt that marriage wasn’t in the cards because we were both so unique and never felt “right” with anyone. It all makes sense now, knowing her and the silly things she does, even her flaws are perfect to me because I see them differently than someone else might. I adore her and I know she adores me. She loves me for all of who I am, not for who she hopes I can someday be. She is amazing with my daughters and they adore her. We have to argue with my daughters because they always want to call her mommy and though we dont allow it, because she isn’t their mommy, we completely understand. She loves my girls like they are her own. Selfless in her dealings with them, reading to them, playing with them, she puts love in everything she does whether it’s the dinners she makes or just her presence in the room. She radiates how strongly she adores us all and how grateful she is to have all of us.
She is just amazing in so many ways. Patient and understanding. She is the polar opposite of anyone I’ve ever dated before. Shes real! She is the textbook incarnation of the perfect woman to complete me in this life.
I can’t wait until the day I can utter the most powerful words I’ve dreamed of since I was a young man, “I do” and “my wife”, and it all be straight from the best and most pure and happy place in my heart.
It’s very sad that the majority of my family won’t be at the wedding and the anger that has been stirring in me because of it is getting difficult. It sounds horrible but in seeing how Cristens family is, so non judgmental, so close and caring for eachother. I used to think my family was real and caring, funny and all of the things that make up a close family and In recent years I’ve come to realize my family is distant, careless and judgmental. They preach love and God, faith and religion but unless you share their beliefs and abide by what they are told all mankind should, you don’t matter. It’s fine, because I have a new family that cares about me and my daughters. They are excited about Cristen and I getting married and wouldn’t miss it for anything, regardless of whether or not it’s a Catholic wedding or where it’s taking place. It’s not about them, it’s about Cristen and myself and they respect us and what we want. Some people just can’t see past themselves.
Such is life.
Nonetheless, I’m not going to let anything or anyone distract me from the amazing and lifelong dream I’m about to achieve in finding the woman I know I’m meant to share my life with. Stones thrown from miles away are easily dodged.
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Dec 7, 2011 Personal Life
So I just started 3 weeks ago with the Residential Finance Corporation as a training broker. It’s great here and everyone is hard working, very sharp and funny. Just a great group of people who genuinely care about getting their clients the best rates they can without any BS. My kind of company. So I’ve been studying for the first time in my entire life! The National Mortgage Lender exam! The past two days I’ve gotten an 82, 85 and a 90 out of 100 on my CompuCram practice tests, so I’m jacked up and think I’m ready!
My test is tomorrow! If I pass, my family is great! If I fail, then I have to wait 30 days to take it again. Scary stuff. Getting married in 6 months and have lots of money going out for various things so I HAVE to pass this test. I already have two refinance clients waiting for me and a financial advisor looking to send business my way every month because he’s a big MMA fan and has loved coming to my shows over the years.
We shall see how it all plays out but I think I’m ready!
Nov 23, 2011 Personal Life
I have been hired by the Residential Finance Corporation to become a Mortgage Broker at their Cincinnati, OH branch.
The owner/manager of the branch has been a fan of the MMA Big Show for a long time and has followed me on Facebook. Turns out, he and I are a LOT alike. Both kind hearted big guys with a knack for business that don’t believe you have to sell your soul to make a living. The mortgage business is perfect for guys like us. We get to help save people money by refinancing their homes and or extending mortgage loans who need a break and we get to make a living from it. You just can’t beat that.
Up until 2 years ago you didnt even need a license to become a Broker, you just needed to be hired by a group that could teach you. Back then, people were making RIDICULOUS money in the field. Now, times have changed and you have to be licensed which is what I’m working on now. I completed a 2 week and a 1 week eligibility course in 3 days and am now eligible to take the final National and State Exams, which I’m currently studying for. I’ve doubled my testing score within the past week and feel good.
My goal: Get Licensed and once I’ve completed my 10th Refinance or Mortgage Loan, begin training for another fight. I won’t fight until I can see my abs. haha I dont want another video of my giant fat body mauling another guy. I wanna look good doing it!
So, within the next couple of weeks I should be licensed and ready to roll. If you or someone you know is in need of the services I’ll be providing, send them my way and know I’ll do everything in my power as will everyone here to get your desired deal done and save you as much money as possible in the process. I actually just saw one of the other MLO (Mortgage Loan Officers) refinance a property for someone and it saved them over $400 a month. CRAZY! I’m just blown away by some of the deals people make and have to assume fell victim to predatory lending in the heydays when there was little regulation. Well, its time to clean up America and if this is my way of getting involved to help while feeding my family, I’m all in.
You can call or text me at 513-258-3545, email me at jason@mmabigshow.com or add me on Facebook!
The MMA Big Show is working on getting $2,000 in sponsorships for Dec 17th or we may not do a show on that date. I’m personally taking a step back to recalibrate my life and focus. Within 2 to 3 months, once some of the things I have brewing for 2012 begin coming to fruition, we will pick things up and hit the ground running in a big way. I just need a break from MMA right now and need to focus on my life change, my family and my amazing fiance.
Dream Fitness 24/7 will be officially open next week (Located in the Plaza on Beechmont Ave across from Penn Station/Uhaul) and just down from Pearl Vision. We’ve had some setbacks due to changing our membership processor and getting our 24 hour door installed, final permit etc. Nothing goes as planned, of course. Though we will be open for business, we still have lots of plans for spicing up the place as memberships begin coming in. It looks nice, but Cristen and I want it to look amazing, and it will in due time!
Thank you all for your support and interest in my blog.
Nov 4, 2011 Personal Life
It’s been 6 years since I started the MMA Big Show. Prior to that I owned Opulent Records. I’ve developed nationally touring bands and put them on live national television. I’ve developed MMA fighters from Amateur to the UFC. I’ve broadcasted live nationally on DirectTV, produced television series and have promoted over 80 Pro/Am MMA events regionally. Anytime anyone has decided to be a fight promoter in this region, the MMA Big Show has been the targeted promotion to take out. Because competing with the MMA Big Show on any real level is impossible. But when you have 5 promotions just doing small shows eating up fragments of the market, the collective efforts though not in collaboration, still cut the pie into too many pieces. It’s time to change course.
The fact is, everyone and their brother wants to be a fight promoter now and in the Cincinnati Market, a market already on the low scale when it comes to MMA event goers, the market is such now that it’s simply not enough to raise a family. The only way to achieve everything I’ve set out to do is by either establishing a lucrative television deal or establish 7 figures in capital and after many of the ups and downs over the years when I’ve thought I had finally achieved one or the other of those goals, something has always happened.
I’m getting married in May and have 2 daughters. My amazing fiance has a son of her own and together, we make a family of 5. The ups and downs of self employment is simply too unstable when raising a family, especially in this economy. It’s simply time to begin working towards making someone else wealthy who has more contacts and funding than I do, and hope they share in the end.
If anyone out there reading this has an opportunity for me, let me know. I’m looking. ( jason@mmabigshow.com )
My problem is, I’ve done so many things and played so many roles over the past decade, in looking at Monster.com and the like, I have no idea what “job title” to look into. How do you categorize someone like me? I’m someone that makes things happen.
Now, for those of you loyal fight fans, I’m not leaving MMA. I’m going to promote an event every other month and focus on continuing to get sponsorships for the shows, television etc. It’s just not going to be my primary focus right now. I hope it ends up like when you are trying to remember something, and when you stop trying, it pops in your head…? Hopefully, if I stop trying so hard for the things I need to take the MMA Big Show to the next level, something will happen to take it there.
One thing nobody can ever say with any truth or conviction is that I dont put on the best damn MMA events in the region and everyone MMA Big Show fan knows “Nobody Does It Better.”
Sep 7, 2011 Political Views
I feel greatly for the loved ones of victims of serious crimes. I think about my fiance, my mother, my son and my daughters, everyone that I love and care for and think to myself how vengeful I would be if something intentional were to happen to any one of them. The beast to kill would awaken in me and I’d probably focus my energies on making sure the person who committed the act paid, one way or another. That’s natural in my opinion to feel such a way and I don’t blame anyone for it. We protect our own at any costs.
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Jul 9, 2011 Personal Life
34 Seconds in the first round by TKO.
I still can’t believe it. It really takes a special kind of person to deal with that kind of pressure on a regular basis. I have a new found respect for the guys that get into that cage and hopefully, the guys that have looked at me like a desk jockey for 6 years saw something they didn’t realize was in me. I have to thank Eric Ward who has helped me tune up my hands for a whole now and has taken a lot of punishment to help get me to what I was able to do what I did without having to think about it.
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Jul 5, 2011 Personal Life
I’m 33 years old. I’ve seen a great many things in such a short span of life and have learned many valuable lessons. I’ve learned hard lessons. In my youth I was nearly impossible to deal with. Head strong and independent of mind and a will that rarely budged. I tortured my mother who worked so hard to raise me on her own. Living on welfare until I was old enough that my mother could again work. She went from working President Nixon’s detail in the Airforce to struggling with her daily chores of raising a fatherless child that wouldn’t take no for an answer. The sacrifices she made to bring me up as best she could. I remember sleeping in a bed in the only bedroom in the apartment as my mother slept every night on the couch. Through out my life religion has always been a topic of open discussion. I am thankful to my Grandmother who would always instill the various facets of religion into my mind and heart hoping that one day those lessons would alter the often chaotic boy I was then. Two of my aunts, both of whom converted from party going youngsters into the devout Catholic worshipers they are today also aided in those lessons and did and continue to do what they can to instill those same principles of faith that have lead them to what I hope is a happier life.
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Apr 21, 2011 Political Views
Since I changed this site over from my normal mixed martial arts discussion into the political forum that it now is, I haven’t been very active here. My apologies. The truth is, I’ve been so caught up in my daily life that I haven’t had much time to post here. I will be completely honest with you all who are actually reading this blog. I will never get elected into public office. I’ll explain why.
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